Unchasable ❤️

#When I showed this post in a draft state to my friend, she was seriously disappointed. Why don’t you write about love stories with happy endings she schreeched with a low tone.
And I was like love stories that are complete end in marriages and people don’t write poetrys and sonnets on them. Unrequited love stories make great songs and poems. And the world clings onto it for centuries I confessed #.

Unchasable ❤️

It’s been so many years.  Our love is now old like the hills, aged and antiquated. But very often you come into my dreams. My strong desire to meet you transforms into a series of images, emotions and sensations occuring involuntarily during my sleep like a reverie.
You are right there in front of me, but you don’t see me.
I touch you but you don’t feel me.
I talk to you but you don’t hear me.
I feel you but you don’t sense me.
You are unchasable, untouchable and unceasable.

I wake up with an excruciating pain that hurts like a hammer in my chest and it’s there for quiet a long time during the day. And as the sun sets and I see the blue Robin’s flying back to their nest, I know I am going to meet you again during the night in a hypnotic state in my dreams where the nightingale sings a different mellifluous tune.
I wish how I knew a spell to have you forever till the end of time. I want that kind of privilege.
But I know some day I will meet you somewhere in some place, in sometime, in some form but I will meet you and you will feel me hear me sense me and love me. And that will be the day when I’ll stop dreaming about you because I will be there deep into your arms embracing the moment I have been longing for a long long time. And that will be my time when the sky will collide and the earth will shake, the mountains will bow. and the ocean will rise and then in the evening silence we both will go on to become stardust in this galaxy of life.

By Madhura ❤️

The infinity love..

And when I’ll leave, you will find me
In those fallen autumn leaves in the backyard.
Under the big ancient tree where we spent eternal time talking about each other.
In those photo frames where we captured朗 some beautiful moments together.
On all the long drives with our favourite playlist playing aloud.
On every rain drop that falls on our rooftop and the lightening thunder I was scared of.
In those half burnt scented candles when the electricity went off.
In those chewed pen caps while making the grocery list.
On the bed in between of the satin linen where we layed in each other’s arms.
On the kitchen top with those half empty coffee mugs with my lipstick stains on it.
On the dining table which was our favourite place in the whole house.
On the bean bag where you always kissed me deeply.
On the empty swing where I loved taking my morning coffee ☕.
On the bathroom floor where we took shower together.
You will miss me on the balcony chairs where we drank endless wine while gazing at the stars.
In between of the flowy curtains where we chased each other while having funny arguments.
In every mirror in the house when you’ll see yourself through my eyes.
On the front porch where I greeted you with hugs when you came home from work.
You will find my fragrance in the laundry basket with huge piled up clothes.
In all my poetries about you scribbled in my notepad on my desk.
You will find me in all the innumerable moments, in your every infinite heartbeat and in each countless breath you take. I will always be there limitlessly.

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By Madhura ❤️

I used to build dreams about you..❤️

“4th June…7 minutes of excessive panic..
Tender is the night. I am a night thinker. I shift my pillow closer to the full moon with so many unsaid words on the tip of my tongue. He breathed slowly as the night matured. I was lying beside of him the whole time. His eyes faded like a dying flower withering away.
He😘 looked otherworldly and vaguely threatening. I am sure he had stardust running through those vains. Oddly enough I couldn’t sleep that night.
I smiled at the stars, they knew all my secrets.

I was just here waiting and hoping for every long dream of him to come true. Anywhere with him is everywhere I wanted to be…
But everyday I went to bed feeling like I have been stabbed in the heart 4 times.
I wanted to spend the rest of my sunsets with him. My heart❤️ was so full of him. I fell for him like raindrops. I wondered what I looked like in his eyes. He had beautiful eyes.The kind you get lost in.

Loving him was like stars exploding in my veins. I loved him😘 with every breath I took.
He would never be unloved by me as he was too well tangled in my soul. Because whenever he touched me, it felt as if the stars were dancing across my skin.
He once told me, meet me in the middle of your story when your soul is wornout. That was three summers back . We hadn’t made love for a long long time. His love for me was no more. And loving him was the most exquisite form of self destruction.

I had found his licentious love letters a long time ago. A secret lover plunging to our marriage was very disheartening & crushing. The wedding ring on my finger was now just another piece of accessory beautyfieing my body. Gradually his betrayal overcasted my love for him. I supressed the storm inside of me like you hold your breath underwater.
Each passing day was heavy and suffocating. I spend a huge amount of time alone grieving about his disloyalty. As sorrowful & distressed I was i pretended about being ignorant all this while.

The night was passing slow and so was his breathing. He wasnt able to breathe. I was sleeping aside. His eyes were opened looking at me with uncertainty because I was calm while he gasped for air. There was no struggle from me to lifeguard him. There was no panic in me. I looked at him calmly.

I held his hand gently & felt the dying pulse. I wanted to see him die slowly. Though it pained me immensely to see that. Politely I confessed that I have poisoned him. That was our last dinner together early that night and I had prepared his favourite cuisine. He seemed confused & agitated, but the poison was paralyzing his body & tongue. He tried to retaliate but was inundated by numbness.
There was a lot of anger & confusion in his eyes. He was turning blue and red at the same time as he sweat profusely. His pillow soaked in sweat. His struggled to move ferociously, calmed my inner retaliation.
Apparently I was learning to live without love, his love. It seemed unimaginable. His trembling body was slowly turning distant & unresponsive. The night took a halt. Everything came to a stand still. The moonlight in the room was dispassionate & the air seemed unruffled. He breathed heavily enough to be heard aloud and he stretched his hands towards me. I stood composed clutching his letters tightly in my palms.
And before he breathed his last, I showed him those letters. His evidence of infidelity. He seemed stunned. The light in his eyes dimmed & his struggle to remain alive was unvailing. I recalled my 8 years of marriage & the countless dreams I had dreamt of, and how every dream shattered like grains of sand.
His still warm hands slipped away brushing my finger tips. I was as silent as the night.
My reprived vengeance now withered away with his last breath and his letters pelted away down to my feet.

By Madhura ❤️

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#Some stories…#

#There are intriguing backstories behind my poetry’s backed by a few people. Those people have loved me emotionally & unconditionally.
These people love you so effortlessly that they make everything so comforting and smooth. You don’t realise that they love you beyond a lot of things because they love you simply. They love you the hardest when you need it the most ❤️#.

“It was one winter morning when I fell in love with a boy
He told me to not wear a short skirt
But he said I love you and that would be all.
I said my friends about him
They said whatever makes you happy
But if not, then let him go free.

Then came a summer noon I kissed one boy on lips.
He tasted like cigarettes
I will love you till the end of time he said.
But once when I came a little late
He threw a plate on me.
My friends saw the bruises
And said to washed my hands off him.

It was a beautiful rainy night that day
I was with a boy I spent time with
He said he will kill himself if it was not his way
My friends hugged me tight that day
They said, you don’t need to go through this alone
We will figure out together one day.

Then there came a season
When I wanted no one at all
He came into my life very gently
Making everything so truthful
His kisses were like devil’s
He rescued me from my unsureness
I told my friends about him
That he kept all my demons away.

They looked into my eyes
Saw my fears going away
He walked into your life like a poem
And said Keep him, stay”.

By Madhura ❤️

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That endless Night..❤️

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My love for him😘 was unidirectional and endless as desire. He was the easiest and hardest person for me to love. But my urge was obsessive. And that night when we met was unforgettable. It was a cold wintry night, foggy & smokey around like you hear in those dreamy fables. Tragically beautiful😍, piquant and calming.

An endless night filled with stars, moonlight, crispy breeze🍃 & making of a lifetime love story, but only to be remembered as a beautiful memory. This love story couldn’t be lived in real because there’s departure.
We both knew it was the last night together. But that was a night where we promised to meet each other in next life. Such was the love😘 that winter#.

“Come with me
To ride on the snowy hills
Beneath the tinsel moon light
Listen to the echoes of the valleys
See they fade in the nipping night.

Look at the rocky mountain
They meet the sky
The river here runs so clear
And the night is lit by fireflies.

We’ll stomp through the thumping thunder
We’ll struggle with the sniveling storms
We’ll dance in the fires
Of willows🍁 and thorns.

We’ll ride the holy fields🌾
We’ll cross the ocean gates
We’ll hear those stories
Said about the ancient tales.

We’ll walk through the striking landscape
Of white vapours and shy green leaves🌿
We’ll witness the gorgeous immersion
Of the beautiful withering spring.

Wishing to make the world go away
Like leaving you is to die glaringly deep
Till then let’s hold our souls together
And let our bodies wane away with the briming breeze🍃.

By Madhura❤️

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